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…to create sales and client results in a way that feels effortless for you…

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What losing my best friend taught me about life, love, and business…

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I lost my best friend, Emily, to cancer right as I was beginning my business. I was shocked, devastated, angry.

 

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She had so much going for her – a new marriage, child, home, and career. I was single, a new entrepreneur waiting tables at night. I would have gladly taken her place.

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I was so shocked by her passing in a matter of weeks after the diagnosis that it also spurred me into action. Losing her hit home to me that tomorrow is not guaranteed.

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While I wrestled with all the stages of grief for years to come, at that moment, I thought, I have to do this for her. She didn’t get to further develop and experience her dream of being a wife, mother, and counselor, so I better well step it up.

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I did.

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I enrolled in a dance performance class, booked a trip to Spain for my birthday, got my website up, did a photo shoot, shared my services more consistently, got out of a destructive relationship, and started dating my now husband. ❤️

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However, I was still partly operating out of fear and guilt.

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And much unforgiveness.

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This became apparent when I would have success in sales and with clients but I would only allow so much before I stopped it and sabotaged further success.

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Doubt, negativity, and despair were always lurking.

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Bitterness, resentment, and anger grew with every disappointment.

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Self condemnation and shame held me hostage at times, keeping me stuck in depression and debt.

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Trying to mold myself into someone else by using some other coach’s script to break through to more sales felt inauthentic, and didn’t work.

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Instead of “forcing” change through some new marketing tactic, I had to learn how to move through it, to honor what I was experiencing –  to stop criticizing what wasn’t working – and most importantly, I had to learn how to forgive.

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Her, for leaving (I know it’s not rational, but it’s real)

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Myself, for abandoning me and for limiting myself

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How did I do it?

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I needed to be guided to see myself through Quantum Eyes – to see above and through and beyond –

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To the me who navigated loss with humility, grace, and forgiveness, and in so doing, kept her heart open instead of allowing it to harden…

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To the me who could learn to see more objectively that loss is a natural, albeit heartbreaking, part of the human experience – and every experience can enrich you in different ways if you allow it to instead of allowing it to make you bitter and cynical…

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To the me who could eventually accept the loss and the hole that will forever be in my heart and life and see how it shaped me to SEE what I wasn’t able to before…

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To the me who could invite and enroll clients naturally and lead them to sales in their businesses in a way only they could, but hadn’t been able to SEE before (which led to a sale within 72 hours of our first session after many months of nada)…

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To the me who could recognize the best gift I could give Emily is to live beyond what I imagined possible because she always believed in me and she would be proud of me as she looks at me from heaven, smiling, saying, “That’s my girl, strong work.”

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To Emily, Happy Birthday, I love you, always. ❤️



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